Today, i created an online blog, i am going to use this as my diary, something to look back on, i’ve never actually kept a diary properly, except when i was a kid and used to write all that simple stuff down like.. “today i went to school” but this is going to be a proper diary with proper entries, somewhere i can write down how i really feel.
So here we go, Well here i am on this Summers evening, running a temperature stuck in my boiling hot room, way too scared to open any windows. because #1 my house backs onto a graveyard & #2 i have recently developed a phobie of flying things. I am preying that this isn’t Swine Flu, becase i take a while to recover from things like this and with Tenerife coming up i really dont want to be stopped at the airport and turned away. So here i am feeling awful, i can hardly hear anything except a low ringing in my ears (i feel as if my head will explode any minute now) and i can only faintly smell my cherry liquor body lotion that i bought cheap in the next sale earlier this year.
There is a lot on my mind at the moment, even though I once saw the summer holidays as six weeks of freedom. The main thing troubling me is university/UCAS applications. I have now decided that the course i want to take is Modern laguages, though this will probably have changed next week, but for now, this is my choice. Its a shame i have only just relised this because i have no language qualifications whatsoever, so i will unfortunatly have to aim for pretty low universities as i will be starting both the laguages at a pretty low level, even if i do take my french and spanish GCSEs next year. I am glad i have changed my mind though, i dont know what was holding me back from this before, up until now i was set on psychology, i had never even thought of languages, but after much research i have come to realise that psychology will get me nowhere and the modern laguage course will make it much easier for me to persue my dream. My dream of travelling, which i will write more about soon.
I am extremely ill and this cold/flu-ey thing has overwhellmed me with tiredness and my bed is calling me.
